My Experience with Satan One and One

March 14, 2011

I wondered within myself why someone would want to be Godlike one week ago. I never know that it was the final temptation for me to receive the Power of God. On Sunday of February 27, I know how it felt to talk with the devil and not seeing anything. At first I thought it was my mother and the Spirit within me said, “Every Spirit that comes around you, you take it for your mother.” The words that were spoken let me to assume this. But after what was send to me I ignored the voice in my Head and concentrate watching a Christian Movie that need to be rewrite.

I think about withholding what happened from my father but the Monday I said to him “Mama was here last night”. He said, “I heard the bottle dropped and when you started talking, but always remember that the dead have no body, after awhile and some of them walk around and make nuisance. “ Then he said, “Did you hear your mother voice?” I started to query it and said “In true and in fact the voice was not hers for true”.

But I realize that the Lord was teaching me about the Devils and how they work because of what I was reading in the Book of Luke. Then I said “Lord, you are really teaching me and this is why I don’t oppose persons, when they are talking to me whether he/she is Born Again yes/no. You use anyone to teach us”.

TEMPTATION

All this time I never have the encounter that Jesus Christ had when He left the wilderness. Luke 4:1-14 I never dream that I would either but it came my way on Tuesday of the same week. In come the devil with my mother’s voice and I caught it same time and I started to laughed at him. I said “look at you trying to trap me”. You see my vessel is clean and so he want to enter in any way he can. He started asking me “If I don’t want to be God like and I said no. The Bible said Christlike and that is what I am sticking to.” The Devil told me that I should ignore the bible and listen to Him. This is when I started to tell him that the Bible is true and only has Human Weaknesses. I said you are the Liar, Deceiver and Destroyer. I have nothing to do with you. Then I went to Jeremiah 2:33 and I told him that I am not searching for Love because I already found it. I said “I am not like the Children of Israel neither am I like Paul who is looking Godlike title. I don’t want followers but I want everyone to follow Jesus Christ. I want people to be Christlike.” It was a terrible temptation and for days I was out of it. Yes I came online but my head was sore.

The experience was terrible worst than in 2007 when he was tempting me to take my life. At that time it was all in the Flesh but because I am living in the Spirit, his only entrance was my head and he did deal with it. The BIBLE was what I have to turn on Him.

Yes Devils are for real and they attack through the Head when the body is clean. If one is not vigilant then Devils will take residence inside of the body and when we believe that we are still clean we are not. I asked the Lord, “Lord am I still with you or is it that the monster has taken me over?” It took an incident on Facebook for me to know that I am still with the Lord. The Lord said “There is prove that I am still with you”. Yes the Word of God was pulsating from my body that day.

I final got release on Sunday in Service when the full Power of God came took over and I was there in the Spirit just magnifying and praising. Then further down I was used to Heal and bring Alive a man in the church. I believe this happen because I was questioning the bringing Alive aspect of the Healing Ministry. Just like other queries the Lord show me that it is real. Of course I question the bible, if I don’t I will not be living by Faith. It is my questions that allow me to trust the Lord and believe in His Words.

Satan is real and who have doubts can stop doubting. Those who believe that there is no God need to start looking at Christ and start building their one and one relationship with Him. 1 John 5:1-6 As for those who envying Positions in churches I would advice them to learn about Christ and have a clean heart so that when the Lord is ready to give them a Leadership role that is purpose in their Hearts they will be able to manage it. My life experiences that give me awareness help me to overcome Satan, along with the Word of God and today I am clean as before I went inside of the temptation. And now I have the Power to do the Lord’s work in Spirit, Holiness and Truth. Luke 9:1-2

The Mystery of God is one that is deep which is being withheld from the Churches. Holiness and Truth are not being taught because the Apostles and Prophetess are no longer welcome in churches. A lot of them are now prayer warriors. Some of them become witches teaching lies and putting dishonesty in a Spirituality which is base on the total teaching of the Mystery of God. Eph 2:18-22 & 3:4-12

In closing I just want to encourage everyone in the Body of Christ to build your one and one Relationship with Christ. Allow Christ to give you His understanding and remember that His manifestation can be seen everywhere. It is just for you to walk in obedience to Him. John 14:21-23

Hugs and blessings

 

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Seeing Faith with My Naked Eyes

September 25, 2010

It is amazing to see what it is to live by Faith and not only living by it but seeing it being displayed in our lives. This past week I see the power of Jehovah through His Son Jesus Christ. We are obedient to Jesus Christ John 15 vs. 4-16. He is our Master and Savior, also who intercedes on our behalf.

On Monday, I said to my father, “Daddy you not cooking” yes he is the chef in the house. Lol His response was “the gas is finished”. I respond with “God will let us cook by faith until we receive money to purchase the gas”.  The Spirit of the Lord asked me “are you convince about this?” I answer “yes I do”.

We cooked between Tuesday-Thursday twice on Wednesday on Faith gas, Yes my friends Faith Gas.  It was when daddy received the checked on Thursday night that I realized that it was indeed faith gas we were cooking on. This morning I heard daddy said “Kerriann said we cooked on grace” and he was laughing.

You know it was last week I was talking about the Power of God and how am going to not talk things negative;  because I looked back in my life and see persons said negative things to me which I returned back and it happened to them. It was what they wished for me and I returned it back to them.  Daddy laughed at the time and said “Who you think you are?” I believe that me and Daddy was taught a lesson this week, my lesson was that I have the Authority and Power that was given to the disciples and so I should use it responsibly and with care. Daddy lesson was to show him that I was not lying, that I have was chosen to do God’s work but I was ignorant to who I was at the time.

My friends we all have our various Spiritual Gifts that is given to us by God through His Son Jesus Christ, don’t stay out in the world and get hurt by them. Yes Satan uses our Spiritual Gifts to harm us because we are ignorant to them. They can only be utilized under the Power and Instruction of Jesus Christ. Pray that God will soften your heart to accept His Son Jesus Christ has your Master and Savior so that you can receive the Joy and Happiness that those gifts offer.

May Jehovah continue to bless and prospers your life through His son Jesus Christ.

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Jesus Christ YOKE

September 7, 2010

Come to me all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30

The fellowship that I am a member of had Youth Convention with the theme “My Yoke is Easy”. The first speaker spoke about a yoke which is burdensome and gave the impression has if this is what Jesus Christ was saying to us. Now during the service it dawn on me that the whole teaching of Jesus Christ is so easy but still humans goes around teaching the wrong thing.

In this verse Jesus already established that we are burden and wearisome, so He said come I will give you rest. Rest to me means cease from what I am going through.  Now the yoke that Jesus is telling us to take upon us mean “His union” which is the baptism Gal 3 vs 27. For us to experience this easy and light burden life we have to walk the way of obedience which means submitting to God through Jesus Christ. To work in obedience we have to see Jesus has who He was here on earth, a Human Being representing His father.

The life of Jesus Christ here on earth was not an easy one has how some of us are lead to believe. Jesus was a human being full blooded with a Kingdom lying on His head 2 Samuel 7 vs 12-16.  Jesus overcame the burden yoke (disobedience) Genesis 3 vs 16-19 and invites us to join Him in the Freedom yoke Matt 11 vs 28-30 (obedience).

Learning from Jesus by reading the Bible will enable us a light burden because Jesus already showed us, how to overcome the heavy burden and weariness that will come our way through Trials and Temptations, Luke 22 vs 39-45,  4 vs 1-13. Following the life of Jesus Christ will give us not only blessings but a light and burden free life. There is one thing I have learned is that in walking in obedience I have to be childlike. So I emptied myself of all that I had known before and allow the Holy Spirit to teach me.

Obedience is the key to receive the Freedom that Jesus Christ our Savior has offered us; it is free and well rewarding.  May God continue to bless and prosper you.

Hugs and blessings

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The Awesomeness of Jesus Christ

August 3, 2010

Back in April, I wrote about going to clinic and discovering that my CD4 was 420. My doctor and I decided to do a new CD4 and Viral Load blood test which was done.

On July 28th, I went for my due appointment and my CD4 result was 712, am presently awaiting the result of my Viral Load. Now I know that this is not my doing but the Almighty God Jesus Christ because am not on medication. This has open my heart more to draw closer to Jesus Christ and to know Him better Spiritually. When I received that phone call from my former employee that day I now fully understand that it was Jesus Christ talking to me when she said “Kerry don’t worry, I know that you love to worry.”

At the time if I was at the Spiritual level that I am now I would interpret it has my lord saying to me “Am here for you believe on me”.  But at that time even though I talk about Jesus Christ passionately and lovingly I still never know Him Spiritually.

My Spiritual Walk With God

In June the guy I fell in love with over the internet told me that he is married, we have been corresponding 17 months. I was so distraught because I thought he was my hope, but I was living in the Natural at that time. So during my bleeding heart I was told by my Pastor mentor after discussing it in devotion, that I should go on Seven days Fasting because what  has happen is a trial. This is the first time I have ever FAST and this is when my Spiritual Walk with God began.

My Spirituality started and I was able to understand what God promises meant and that they are true.  Then I find myself having Theme for the week, my first Theme was “I need a Touch from you Jesus”. I went to church and my life was transformed. A song was singing about having Jesus Christ as our Joy, then I started remembering all that I went through. This is when I started jumping and shouting “Thank You Jesus it is you that carried me through my 13 years of bondage.” In service that day I was dancing and rejoicing.  That is when I started to see the awesomeness of the God I serve.

Bible Study

Bible Study is an important factor into a Christian Life.  “How many of us really see the importance of it and seeing it the way our Heavenly Father want us to?”

On July 28th, I went to Bible Study and I discovered by the Holy Spirit that these Study Bibles are giving misleading and wrong information. The best Bible Teacher is the Holy Spirit. Before reading your bible ask the Holy Spirit to give you Spiritual Eyes so that you will see the Bible the way our Heavenly Father want you to and not allow the devil to cloud your mind in the Natural.

Once we accept Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior we are working towards a home in the Spiritual Kingdom. This Spirituality is not for us to jump up and down in church and speaking in tongues without an interpreter.  It is for us to know our Heavenly Father, His enemies and what the death of Jesus Christ truly means to us mankind.  Once we are able to open our eyes to this reality then we will be like Jesus Christ.

My advice to you stop saying that Christianity is hard. It is a seed planted into our mind by the devil. If you hear your Spiritual family members uttering this, then rebuke the devil and let him know that he is the enemy of Jesus Christ and so he is also yours too.

My brothers and sisters in Christ know who you are and who you belongs to in doing this you will not be lead astray. Remember that our home is not here on earth (Natural) but in the Spiritual were happiness, Peace, Joy and Eternal life awaits.

May Jesus Christ through the Holy Spirit saturate you with His Spiritual Awareness.

Come to me all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.  Take my yoke upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.  For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30

Hugs, Love and Blessings


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It’s Now Four (4) Years

February 26, 2010

I visited my doctor on Monday February 22, 2010, not my HIV Specialist but my Family Practitioner Dr. R. Dowe. I anticipated this visit because I had not been there for the past three (3) years.

As usual the waiting room was full and my waiting period was approximately one (1) hour. Sitting there I started to reflect on the day I was diagnosed then I come to realized that during this difficult period in my life he was not only my doctor but the Angel that the Lord has sent to guide me.

It is now four (4) years of my diagnosed and it is because of the brotherly advice of Dr. Dowe that I was able not to see the virus as a foe. Even though I went against his advice of not telling anyone, an advice that I am totally against I appreciate all the time he spent on searching around to gather information for us. I pray that the good Lord Jesus Christ continue to bless and strengthen his practice, enriched his life, the members of his family and all those that are impacted by him.

Being Diagnosed for 4 Years

It wasn’t an easy road, overcoming depression, learning about myself, striving to build a business and having my one on one relationship with God, through it all am thankful to still be alive and being medication free. (Yes I have a phobia and it is the HIV medication. The reason being once you are on it you cannot come off).

Eve for Life

This organization is for Women and Children living with HIV. It was founded by two powerful and wonderful women of God Mrs. Joy Crawford and Miss Patricia Watson. Their mission is to educate and empowered women who are living with HIV in Jamaica. I know that with God’s continual presence in their lives and this organization it shall be accomplish. There is more information here http://eveforlife.org.

Regrets

WOW are there any? Will I deem mentally ill if I said NO. Lol There are times when we look in our lives and see that because of disobedience we end up on the wrong tracks, but the Heavenly Father in his infinite mercy did not allow it to consumed us. So because of this outlook I said No, I have learned from my mistakes and so instead of harboring regrets I prefer to use those mistakes to strengthen me.

Nothing in life can stop us from achieving our dreams. Obstacles will arise but it is you the individual who should take the negatives and turn it into a positive. My favorite line is ‘I am positive in blood so why shouldn’t I be positive in mind.’

Shout Out

Now I cannot end this without giving a shout out to my Nigerian friends Amila, Deji, Prince,Vincent, Ambrose and Uby,   American Friend  Sandybabe .

The Love of God is within us, learn about it, practice it and your lives shall be enriched.

God bless You All

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Testing and Trials

April 7, 2009

On Thursday April 2,  I received a phone call that my ex-boyfriend had been chopped and taken to the hospital. I started crying after receiving this call. I cried not because I am still in love with him but because I know that he had not accepted Jesus as his Lord and Savior. I cried because I also know that he is not taking his medication as prescribed and so would be unable to fight for his life.

My friends in the office tried to encourage me to visit the hospital and to do my Christian duties. So I went to the bus stop. After being there for a while unable to get a bus I returned to the office. Then and there I started to reflect at the life he lives. I knew that if I went to that hospital I would drawn back there and so I began working again.

After a couple of minutes my phone rang again. It was him calling me telling me that he was at the hospital. I asked him what had happened, he disclosed that he was in a bar and a dispute between him and another took place and the man used a drinking glass to chop him in his head. He said that the doctor told him if he had spent one more minute he would have died.

Does he see this one minute as God’s grace and mercy for him to repent and ask God to enter into his life? I don’t know because I have not asked him, however I have seen this incident as a way of strengthening my life with God. Yes the devil had opened a trap for me to walk into but because of God’s Grace I was able to walk around it and out of it.

How many of us see where the Lord has taken us from but allow the devil to bring us back? How many of us have prophecy being spoken into our lives but never allow it to fulfill because we say that God’s time is too long? I know that this event was a test for me and I am glad that I was able to go around it. On Tuesday March 31 in our weekly devotion the Holy Spirit of God asked me “Where Are You?” through the prophetess. I knew that this was one of my tests. At the time I was confused not knowing how to answer and finding excuses.

I never understood what was being asked but I began to seek God’s face, searching my heart for the meaning of these words. After seeing this test and how I maneuvered through it, my heart is light. I can truly attest that no one can ever go to God and be the same again.

Thank you Heavenly Father for being the patient and forgiving God you are. You are awesome and worthy to be praised.

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REFLECTION

February 17, 2009

Do you reflect on your life from birth to where you are now? Do you give thanks to God for bringing you through? I do.

Birth Stage

When I was born my parents told me that I weight 3 ½ lb that’s chicken weight. Can you imagine holding a baby at this stage? Heck I am afraid of holding a 8lb baby much less a 3 1/2lb baby.

I am thankful for surviving this birth and for all the prayers that was sent up for me.

Teenage Stage

I had a couple of bumpy rides. I didn’t pass the examination that enables one to attend a prestigious High School, so I was sent to a Secondary School. Having attended this school and my mother is the reason I am a fighter. Here teachers help their students who show potential. I was given the necessary assistance that enables me never to stop from school because of lack of funds.

These teachers took me under their wings and molded me so that I could build the necessary self esteem to work towards my goals. While attending school my goal was to become a Teacher or an Entrepreneur. I discussed this with my teachers and they told me the subjects that I should peruse which I did. I worked on my weak area which was Mathematics and passed it. I was given a career choice and I chose Secretarial Studies. I graduated at the top of this class and made my mother and teachers proud. But the proudest moment for me was when the graduation class gave me a standing Ovation.

I am thankful to God for allowing these persons to help mold my life in a positive way.

Working Experience

I started working one month after graduation. My mother, bless her soul wanted to send me to a technical High School but I had to face the reality that she couldn’t afford it and so I started to work instead. I did various jobs in the first year of graduation until I was given a permanent one in the field of Data Entry. I virtually taught myself this job. I went to work early and left late until I became the no. 1 typist on my floor. After a year of doing this my supervisor sent me to a Government Ministry where I received a job as a Clerk/Typist.

While working there I was inspired to attend evening school and started saving towards my goal of attending Teacher’s College. At this workplace there were old and young attending evening classes or studying at the University and I was marveled at this. Hence my determination began of achieving my goal.

God I thank you for placing persons in my life to encourage me a little bit further.

College Life

I started college and was very enthusiastic as I saw myself reaching closer to my dreams. I knew that this was the beginning and I had three years before me. Then I became ill two months in attendance. This sickness took away four years of my life and I am still baffled at what happen because up until this day the doctors cannot diagnose what was the caused of my illness at that time.

I am thankful for the girls who where in the bathroom at the time when I fainted, if they were not there I would not be alive today.

God I worship you and thank you for appointing Angels over my life. I could have died but you had other plans for me.

Adult Life

So I showed the devil that he has no control over my life and fought that sickness with the help of God and in doing this I re-entered the working world once more. I started working and saving again because I told myself that my dream is to become a teacher and I know I can make it. I received a job as a Customer Service Representative and from there as a Branch Manager for a Wholesale Store. It was at the latter job that I became involved with the guy who infected me. I lost my mother and found out that I have this disease and went into depression.

Was I alone? At this moment I thought that God had abandoned me but he never did. It was in May ’08 my younger sister and her husband gave me a Laptop and I was there surfing the Internet searching for jobs but couldn’t find any. Then one Tuesday morning I poured out my heart to God.

He answered me by giving me a job with a Christian lady. It is at this job I reunited myself with God and built back my self confidence and I am happy to say that I am still here working and learning new things each day. I am still looking towards becoming a Teacher and working with HIV/AIDS infected and affected children.

In life things happen to us but in the midst of it all we should always reflect at where we are and the blessings that God has bestowed on us. Yes we go through valleys but it is through these valleys in our lives that we see the hands of God and should at all times be thankful.

My Prayer

I am thankful heavenly Father for all the persons who have touched my life in a positive way. Some of them have passed on and I pray that they will have a place in your wonderful Kingdom. Those that are living Heavenly Father, I pray that you bless and protect them with your divine mercy. Let them be prosperous in whatever they do in his/her life. Thank you for the blood of Jesus Christ and for being the merciful and forgiving God that you are. Through Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour .
Amen

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My Walk With God

January 22, 2009

When I realized that I was HIV positive, all the persons that I interacted with encouraged me to return back to God, but I was very stubborn. My reply was I am not going back to Him because of my diagnosis. Yes I believe that God can heal me but I was not going to make this sickness the reason for returning.

Even though I was not attending church I drew on the Christian principles that I was grown with. Then I realized that this was not enough, and in January 2008 I started attending church. This is when I faced discrimination in the church, and not knowing what to do, I ran from the church again. LOL

You see the whole existence of Jesus Christ is based on a four letter word LOVE but this was not displayed at the church. I remember telling the pastor that I wanted to be re-baptized and she told me that when we visited another church she would allow me to do it there. Then I said, “Why should I go to another church to be baptized when this church has its own pool?” I just stopped going.

It was August 2008 that I received a job which transformed my life and brought me closer to God. When I began working at this job I was nervous and afraid wondering if I was open with my diagnostic report, would I be asked to leave. So, with apprehension, I began to work. I started on a Wednesday and the following Monday morning there was a bible study session. I was taken aback because you don’t see this happening at the workplace. It was at one of these weekly bible study meetings that I reconfirmed myself with God and exposed the secret that I was carrying in my heart.

I know that I am far from being an ideal Christian but I have learned so much about God in these weekly bible study meetings that I have begun to apply the teachings in my life. Even while writing this, my Dad was discussing about an ointment that he bought. His first thought is “I wonder if this will work,” and my response to him was “Stop giving the devil reason to make the ointment not to work. You should say this ointment will work through the will of God.”

It is good when you are reading the word of God and applying it in your life. I have started to do this and it has made me feel so wonderful and positive minded. There are some things that I have learned that I would like to share with you:

1.     Forgiveness – Displaying this allows me to stop holding grudges

2.    Murmuring – Once I have forgiven, I also stop murmuring about  the  negative  events that took place in my life.

3.    Love – Starting to show love again allows me to start smiling again. The  smile that I have lost over the years has come back, and people have noticed and commented on it.

4.    Prayer – Using the format of A.C.T.S. Which is Acknowledgment,
Confession, Thanksgiving and Supplication, I have seen where
the spirit of God is playing a great role in my life.

I am not saying that everything is rosy and smooth sailing because you know when you are doing the things of God then the devil is right there to place fear in your heart. Yes, he is right there lurking and sometimes I will allow fear to creep in. But then I just reprimand myself in the way of a reminder, which is that God does not give anyone the spirit of fear. I place this on my heart and repeat whenever fear comes to the forefront.

I love this passage of scripture:   “There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man; but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it” -   1 Corinthians 10:13.

Yes, I have lost friends and a job; but in this I have also gained friends that have empowered me and a job that has enabled me to know a greater Friend who will never leave me – Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour.

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